Ottobre so far
From working with the dead sometimes, my humor is on the dark and morbid side.
But, October has brought about a bunch of changes in my life.. For one... My last day at the morgue office is October 24th. I also decided that since business has slowed way down in my private practice, I might as well close that.
I am making major life changes. I have uprooted everything already, and I for the most part feel I have lost everything I have worked hard on accomplishing for the last 10 years.
So, this is not the beginning of a new chapter in my life; this is the beginning of a new book! That first book is already closed, ended, and tossed into the seas; this new book is newly opened, has just begun! Look, it is the first page! And it is a beautiful one! -C. JoyBell C.
I seem to have been living my life through quotes lately... but, I keep finding some that work perfectly..
I am going to make a Major move.. I mean a major one and I am going to do it. No matter what line of bullshit I have been hearing from people, I am working on me. I feel like this little town is suffocating me and it won't let me be.
I am going to try to document all of this journey as it goes. I am not foretelling any future plans, I will just write about them as they happen.
But, I will go into the past.
|The two of us have been through some rough times this year.. In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.|
(if you haven't noticed my filter is broken and words will just be put down as they come to my head)
So between the two of us, we have learned a very important life lesson. No matter what people take away from us, we still have family and we still have our passion for making the best out of life. lesson point "LIFE GOES ON". We have taken our lives back and we are beaming with happiness now. We are both making positive plans for futures we are creating out of what we want.
Because we have walked away from our shitty situations with unhealthy coping mechanisms... but, we are turning that all around.
|Us Sanderson sisters at Oktoberfest this weekend ;) Baby K on the right has been my friend for over 20 years :)|
The last weekend in August, I met a good friend of mine At the Chateau Elan in Georgia, what a Boogie place that is.. we had a great time.. Drank some interesting wine and ate some good food..
|trying to hear it through the grape vine haha|
And last weekend We had a girls night out for an acquaintance's birthday dinner/keroke.
|My three best friends|
|i have realized the fact that: I'm not fragile like a flower.. I’m fragile like a bomb..|
|Gemma Posing for a Picture!|
And this brings me to last weekend was Oktoberfest..
I learned something about people this past weekend.
we all headed down to the festivities and the first thing on our mind was food. We b-lined it down to Figaro's to get schnitzel on a pretzel bun with sauerkraut. (I %^$&*&#$ love Sauerkraut...) anyways.. we all ate there, then since it is october in the south and the temperature was 90+ degrees of the Fahrenheit.. we decided to swoop down around the square and go to a local fancy bar.
We get there and it was super crowded; and I had Gemma. I found a place to stand next to a friend of mine and Kim found a place at the bar.. and we all were talking about the bands and what different good stuff we had eaten. and we were all mingling.. blah blah bullshit funny conversation and stories.. and this guy says something to me about Gemma. So obviously I will show you baby pictures of my kid and tell you stories.. So we engage in conversation about dogs.. he had some hunting dog.. blah blah.. he's a super cute guy and my age.. and he goes off on this tangent about living with his parents and having a dog because they are easier to keep than kids and less responsibility..... and he was so proud of himself for not wanting responsibility.... so when he looked down to scroll through more pictures of his dog to show me.. I walked off... Here in lies the lesson....
holy crap he is a grown ass man, still living with his parents because he don't want responsibilities? and got a dog because they are easier to keep than kids? what the hell has the world come to these days? I think my generation is split.. people that work, and work way to hard so they haven't started families.... or the half that they are entitled and don't want responsibilities....
And this is why I am not good at making friends... haha
I will leave you with this.....
I sure as hell have gotten some good experience out of the past decade of my life...